One thing that has changed for me, and is requiring a bit of adjustment, is that I actually have to think about what I'm going to wear.  
From the time I graduated from diapers and onesies I have lived in the default outfit; t-shirt and jeans.  Color doesn't matter (preference for black aside), there's really no decision making involved.  But ever since a couple of months ago, when I finally admitted that with the changes in my body, I could no longer wear that default, I have been trying to come to terms with what I can & can't wear.  I don't dread it, I don't feel it's particularly onerous, it's simply what has to happen to look good and for me to be comfortable.  This is as opposed to not giving a damn how I look!  
So, today I have a couple of things to do after work, things that actually more reflect me in girl mode.  Once or twice before, I've brought a change of clothes with me to work.  This is going to happen more, until I put away the boy things entirely.  ("When?  When?  Can we do that now?" I ask.  "No, not quite yet," I regretfully reply)  
I bought a pair of capri pants at the local tar zhay, and then went over to another store in the same little mall, Avenue, and found a lot of clothes I liked (OK, tastes are starting to show -- I like girl-mode t-shirt and jeans!  lol)  I have them with me today.  As my bus was pulling away from my stop, I suddenly realized that the bra I'm wearing will not work with the top I brought.  Damn!  So, what to do?  I'm hesitant to go out and buy another top, but I think that may be the solution.  
I need more clothes anyway.  I just need to not spend money.
 
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Haw, fun! New problems!
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